With time, some fears are able to fade away while others are never going to go away. There are some fears that we are never able to face though. Its difficult to face certain fears, like public speaking. One of my BIGGEST fears in my life. I understand that there are people that can face their fears but that is not one of them for me.
Fears that i believe people can face are the fears of certain objects or animals. I am deathly afraid of clowns but i think that eventually i COULD potentially get over it. People say that its a phobia. its called coulrophobia, which is the fear of clowns. thats something that you can get over, over time.
Public speaking im guessing comes with time, but i have no want to get over that fear because i am so afraid, i dislike saying anything infront of anyone other then my friends.
So is there something wrong with me that i am like this? Am i too afraid of change? whatever it may be i hope to figure it out soon, because school requires you to be more open with yourself and with your peers no matter how afraid you are.
We all have things that we are naturally good at, there are things that with being taught that we can learn pretty easily too. Currently im in school and there are things i know already that im going to need to pay alot of attention to and learn, this is my last year and i need to do well and im going to.
Alot of people put blocks on themselves, they say that they cant do certain things, like learn, that they cant do better then a d or c in certain classes and i dont believe it, i see that with my friends especially, they are constantly tearing themselves down about how they do academicly. and it bothers me cause i love them and i dont want them to be like that, so i offer my help, i tell them, hey i will help you all the time if you want, just let me know and ill be there or call me, and no matter how many times i say it, they never do.
This is about learning from your own mistakes, if you cant get it down on your own the first time, dont be fighting to pass something when you have help right infront of you. Accept the help and learn that its ok not to do everything by yourself.
All of my pictures that i have taken to Pink Floyds On the Turning Away
On the turning away From the pale and downtrodden And the words they say Which we wont understand Dont accept that whats happening Is just a case of others suffering Or youll find that youre joining in The turning away
Its a sin that somehow Light is changing to shadow And casting its shroud Over all we have known Unaware how the ranks have grown Driven on by a heart of stone We could find that were all alone In the dream of the proud
On the wings of the night As the daytime is stirring Where the speechless unite In a silent accord Using words you will find are strange And mesmerized as they light the flame Feel the new wind of change On the wings of the night
No more turning away From the weak and the weary No more turning away From the coldness inside Just a world that we all must share Its not enough just to stand and stare Is it only a dream that therell be No more turning away?